Tao of Kink

Chapter 19

Modified mind

That beautiful contrast between perfect intact body that could be - and the excitement, beauty and oddity of added or missing bits.
Taking ownership of my body.
Allowing the others to take ownership of my body.
Recreating my body to reflect my "joie de vivre" and my own taste.
Displaying scars of life, moments I wish to remember, acknowledging constant change.
Enhancing and destroying, making the body more explicitly sexual, exaggerated tension between natural and civilized.

To change or not to change

I have an insatiable passion for intact male body. Its natural athletic shape, fluffy hairy decoration, pores and openings leaking intense-smelling fluids, excessive foreskin, odd protrusions - brutish appearance that many men are ashamed of, as if imperfect, unfinished, lagging in evolution. A beauty that is not aware of itself.

On the other hand - any expression of one’s liberty and ownership of his body is a fascinating act that encompasses both a loss of that intact perfection and a creation of unique piece of art, perfect in its own truth. Shaving, stretching, muscle shaping, tattoos, piercings, circumcision, amputations. Irreversibility of the act contains both sadness of parting with natural shape (and sometimes function) and joy of exploration of unknown ways in which the new body will appeal to or trigger the others and also please or tease its owner. No way back.

Less casualness and more awareness of the act, the more excitement it brings. Sharing the experience of modification with someone else takes it to a completely different level. The hottest fantasies dare the slave to submit physically with such determination and devotion that it leaves the decision of its body shape and functionality up to the taste of its master. Offering pieces of one’s skin, giving up of some sensations and possibilities of sexual release, being visibly marked. Re-focusing from one’s own desensitised, adjusted, encased organs - towards the new sensations of pleasing the body of The Owner. A task frustratingly harder to accomplish.

Slave’s sexuality expands to the body of it’s master. Master’s sexual pleasure stretches to the second available body of his servant. A mutual exchange, a mutual win, though unequal roles. Borderline fantasy? Perhaps. Though it is one of the clearest expression of the ultimate turn on of the d/s play: Power exchange that is happening in between two free minds. Embodying the role, allowing to take away the options, replacing the inner resistance with a struggle to submit deeper, executing one’s own determined will, receiving exactly the sexual service one needs.

Every body scar is a two-fold beauty - the unique shade and shape of taste it presents now and the reminder of the original look it replaced and left behind. Time goes only forward.