Imagination of Kinky Soul
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Conversations with soul, dressed up in holy fetishes
"It offends some, fascinates others, and turns on quite a few. I believe there's a largely unexplored region in the human psyche, something Jung called "the Shadow," that many of us are reluctant to face. It isn’t pretty, but it must be examined at if we’re to gain control over it. Until we do, it exerts its influence in secret, which can lead to real-life violence of all kinds."
- Greasetank on darkness
Kink in public sphere
Most of the following articles were written for my tumblr blog - before tumblr decided to follow the path of profits in the illiberal, moralist and god-prefers-families-with-children corners of this world. A platform where vanilla and kinky folks used to meet, innocent and perverse have cross-inspired each-other, photographers and random (re)bloggers shared their impressions, nature lovers and naturists intermingled, straights and queers coexisted - connected by inner passion, mostly also self-acceptance and quite often even mutual live-and-let-live respect. A space where visual perceptions and thoughts on individual experience of life met in synergy.
Queer eyes on how
tumblr dies
Personal take on how tumblr decided to wipe out nudity, sex and kink out of their domain. Rumination on how sexuality connects with the philosophy, perversion touches the everyday "normal" life and how treatment of obscure minorties reflects on the state of society.
"Perhaps my art represents all that is base in the human spirit. I don't know, but I do know one thing—you don't come to the light by suppressing the darkness. Everything must eventually be uncovered and revealed for what it is, and therein lies the real danger of censorship. It stifles our spiritual growth."
- Greasetank on censorship
Tao of Kink
The written content of my blog can be explored here:
Chapter: 1
Vanilla and Kink
Where tao, psychology and kink meet. The beauty and the kink is in the eye of beholder. Meditation on the fuzzy borders and gray zone between sweet and dirty.
Chapter: 2
Dominance and Submission
Master, through release of his dominant energy, serves his slave to live his fantasies. Slave leads his master among the desires and limits, through his self-controlled will to submit. Meditation on fuzziness of power exchange.
Chapter: 3
Freedom and Ownership
Freedom to dream about loosing freedom. Choosing not to choose, be told what to do, obey and serve. Giving control and giving worries - taking ownership and taking responsibility. Being owned by the one we (lovingly) own. Meditation on paradoxes of wishing to fulfill wishes.
Chapter: 4
Fetish and Story
What’s more attractive - nude body or sexy dress? Are we fascinated by costumes or actors? Do empty sets turn us on without anything happening there? Why can’t we stop collecting items of fetishes? Meditation on tension between things and fantasies.
Chapter: 5
Guns and Kisses
Why do we like to play at/with the roughest boys? Why do the spaces we otherwise avoid attract us so irresistibly? What’s so sexy about the uniforms? Can tenderness be found in the most improbable places? Does adventure smell of sweat and gunpowder? And what is true about metaphor of firing guns and dicks shooting?
Chapter: 6
Acting and Real Violence
How to spice up action and not overdo it? How dark one can afford to be? What is too little and what is too much? When does the "use" of person becomes abuse? Where is the border at which "torture" loses quotes? Which are the symbols one would not make fetish of? Gazing into pitch black through disturbing imagination.
Chapter: 7
Sadism and Masochism
How intense, how painful, how unbearable? How much torment is sexy? Can master give pain with love? Can slave receive pain with joy? Can we hurt without wounding? Could destruction of body be also reclaiming of self? Mediation on how scars from play supplement scars from life.
Chapter: 8
Tenderness and Roughness
Caring by hurting. Torment as a loving attention. Unleashing wild manliness and staying sane. Enjoying a bit of rough sex without forgetting to be tender. Becoming a piece of meat without losing soul. Mediation on keeping the human dimension in BDSM scenes.
Chapter: 9
Scenarios and Spontaneity
How to let go without free fall? How to play safe without missing fun? Can one plan the session and still not make it boring? Can one enact all his fantasies and still leave enough room to enjoy the moments of surprise?
Chapter: 10
Fantasies and Reality
Is one sick imagining the most extreme interactions - without ever wanting to go there? Should all the fantasies be enacted and embodied? Can we be satisfied just thinking of something? How much of my sexual self is in my body and how much in my head? Meditation on daring to do as much as honoring of daring to dream.
Chapter: 11
Permanent and Temporary
The phrase of fear and sanity: "No permanent marks." Tease of getting them. Fantasy of losing control over the shape of our bodies. Does pain in BDSM leave any traces? Should mental wounds project on physical level? Are we getting any scars through indulging in kinky experience? How passing and superficial it is? How deep it penetrates? What remains from our darker adventures?
Chapter: 12
Limits or "No limits"
Should borders be explored, teased or transgressed? Should there be borders at all? Should limits be pushed or respected as they are? Is it a point of BDSM to get one beyond? Can one get something from it - knowing that the borders are there?
Chapter: 13
Mind-fuck and Body-pain
How much physical pain will satisfy the mind? How much mental pain will the flesh feel? Does our kinky soul crave to suffer or to submit? Meditation on situations, scenarios and scenes that turn us on without a single ass-slap.
Chapter: 14
Safety and Danger
Can the dangerous games be played somewhat safe? Is the predictable scene fun at all? Is being at mercy of the stranger fun at all? How does the act differ from real violence? How far the play can go? How does our sexual body respond to risk? How does sexuality relate to (fear of) death?
Later works by topic:
Chapter: 15
Fetish (and) environment
Fetish is a niche consumption that in its most emblematic forms represents and expensive pastime of the wealthier. Where does the latex come from, how "organically" is the leather produced, how many sneakers have to be sewn in China, why is there excess of military gear, or does your favorite skinhead shop support the racists as well?
Chapter: 16
Cruising
Cruising used to be an ancient and ritualistic way how queers found each other for sex, intimacy or even connections beyond. It seems outdated in the age of apps. No one dares to experience face-to-face rejection anymore. Revisiting the real-life interactions for the sake of adventure, story and a real smell of man.
Chapter: 17
Self-pleasure
Masturbation as life-long education. Pleasing oneself as a lesson of how to gratify the others. Coming back home, to ones body, to ones full-scale presence.
Chapter: 18
View from below
On the great powers that those who submit their power possess.
Chapter: 19
Modified mind
The tormenting contrast between perfect intact maculine bodies ... and their adjusted, artfully re-created, intentionally scarred - and still perfect - counterparts.
Chapter: 20
Locked to run free
Chastity belts unleash a storm of unchaste thoughts. Shutting off one sense can enhance the other ones in long run. Who would have thought of the dick as a sensual organ, right?
Chapter: 21
Woof!
A short mediation on art of teasing, the play of contrasts and contradictions. Back to Tao.
Inspiring articles on dominance/submission from the others:
Why true SM enriches the slave its life
Inspiring articles on BDSM and soul from the others:
Thomas Moore: psychotherapist, writer
Books dedicated to darker corners of sexuality in perspective of the care of the soul, archetypal (Jungian, depth) psychology, and healthy work with imaination:
Dark Eros: The Imagination of Sadism
The Soul of Sex: Cultivating Life as an Act of Love
Basic works:
Care of the Soul: Guide for Cultivating Depth and Sacredness in Everyday Life
Soul Mates: Honoring the Mystery of Love and Relationship
Easily digestable journey of the life's topics in the best spirit of Moore's psychotherapeutic approach:
Original Self: Living with Paradox and Originality
Maldora: How not to rape the pain
Experienced dominatrix shares her extraordinary perspective on how compulsive light-washing of darkness resembles to self-rape that brings more damage than help.
Greasetank: "You don't come to the light by suppressing the darkness"
Infamous 3D artist, author of one of the most challenging sexual imagery, shares his perspective on freedom of expression, censorship and perhaps how healthy grasp of darkness can bring a bit more light(ness) into the civil life.
